RELATIONSHIP
UNLESS AND UNTIL YOU ACCESS THE CONSCIOUSNESS FREQUENCY OF PRESEMCE, ALL RELATIONSHIPS, AND PARTICULARLY INTIMATE RELATIONSHIPS, ARE DEEPLY FLAWED AND ULTIMATELY DYSFUNCTIONAL. THEY MAY SEEM PERFECT FOR A WHILE, SUCH AS WHEN YOU ARE "IN LOVE", BUT INVARIABLY THAT APPARENT PERFECTION GETS DISRUPTED AS ARGUMENTS, CONFLICTS, DISSATISFACTION, AND EMOTIONAL OR EVEN PHYSICAL VIOLENCE OCCUR WITH INCREASING FREQUENCY. IT SEEMS THAT MOST "LOVE RELATIONSHIP" BECOME LOVE /HATE RELATIONSHIPS BEFORE LONG. LOVE CAN THEN TURN INTO SAVAGE ATTACK, FEELINGS OF HOSTILITY, OR COMPLETE WITHDRAWAL OF AFFECTION AT THE FLICK OF A SWITCH. THIS IS CONSIDERED NORMAL. THE RELATIONSHIP THEN OSCILLATES SWITCH. THIS IS CONSIDERED NORMAL. THE RELATIONSHIP THEN OSCILLATES FOR A WHILE, A FEW MONTHS OR A FEW YEARS, BETWEEN THE POLARITIES OF "LOVE" AND HATE, AND IT GIVES YOU AS MUCH PLEASURE AS IT GIVES YOU PAIN. IT IS NOT UNCOMMON FOR COUPLES TO BECOME ADDICTED TO THOSE CYCLES. THEIR DRAMA MAKES THEM FEEL ALIVE. WHEN A BALANCE BETWEEN THE POSITIVE/NEGATIVE POLARITIES IS LOST AND THE NEGATIVE, DESTRUCTIVE CYCLES OCCUR WITH INCREASING FREQUENCY AND INTENSITY, WHICH TENDS TO HAPPEN SOONER OR LATER, THEN IT WILL NOT BE LONG BEFORE THE RELATIONSHIP FINLLY COLLAPSES.
IT MAY APPEAR THAT IF YOU COULD ONLY ELIMINATE THE NEGATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE CYCLES, THEN ALL WOULD BE WELL AND THE RELATIONSHIP WOULD FLOWER BEAUTIFULLY - BUT ALAS, THIS IS NOT POSSIBLE. THE POLARITIES ARE MUTUALLY INTERDEPENDENT. YOU CANNOT HAVE ONE WITHOUT THE OTHER. THE POSITIVE ALREADY CONTAINS WITHIN ITSELF THE AS YET UNMANIFESTED NEGATIVE. BOTH ARE IN FACT DIFFERENT ASPECTS OF THE SAME DYSFUNCTION. I AM SPEAKING HERE OF WHAT IS COMMONLY CALLED ROMANTIC DYSFUNTION. I AM SPEAKING HERE OF WHAT IS COMMONLY CALLED ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP - NOT OF TRUE LOVE, WHICH HAS NO OPPOSITE BECAUSE IT ARISES FROM BEYOND THE MIND. LOVE AS A CONTINUOUS STATE IS AS YET VERY RARE- AS RARE AS CONSCIOUS HUMAN BEINGS. BRIEF AND ELUSIVE GLIMPSES OF LOVE, HOWEVER, ARE POSSIBLE WHENVER THERE IS A GAP IN THE STREAM OF MIND.
THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF A RELATIONSHIP IS, OF COURSE, MORE EASILY RECOGNIZABLE AS DYSFUNCTIONAL THAN THE POSITIVE ONE. AND IT IS ALSO EASIER TO RECOGNIZE THE SOURCE OF NEGATIVITY IN YOUR PARTNER THAN TO SEE IT IN YOURSELF. IT CAN MANIFEST IN MANY FORMS, POSSESSIVENESS, JEALOUSY, CONTROL, WITHDRAWAL AND UNSPOKEN RESENTMENT, AND NEED TO BE RIGHT, INSENSITIVITY AND SELF-ABSORPTION, EMOTIONAL DEMANDS AND MANIPULATION, THE URGE TO ARGUE, CRITICIZE, JUDGE, BLAME, OR ATTACK, ANGER, UNCONSCIOUS REVENGE FOR PAST PAIN INFLICTED BY A PARENT, RAGE AND PHYSICAL VIOLENCE.
ON THE POSITIVE SIDE, YOU ARE "IN LOVE" WITH YOUR PARTNER. THIS IS AT FIRST A DEEPLY SATISFYING STATE. YOU FEEL INTENSELY ALIVE. YOUR EXISTENCE HAS SUDDENLY BECOME MEANINGFUL BECAUSE SOMEONE NEEDS YOU, WANTS YOU, AND MAKES YOU FEEL SPECIAL, AND YOU DO THE SAME FOR HIM OR HER. WHEN YOU ARE TOGETHER, YOU FEEL WHOLE. THE FEELING CAN BECOME SO INTENSE THAT THE REST OF THE WORLD FADES INTO INSIGNICANCE.
HOWEVER, YOU MAY ALSO HAVE NOTICED THAT THERE IS A NEEDINESS AND A CLINGING QUALITY TO THAT INTENSITY. YOU BECOME ADDICTED TO THE OTHER PERSON. HE OR SHE ACTS ON YOU LIKE A DRUG. YOU ARE ON A HIGH WHEN THE DRUG IS AVAILABLE, BUT EVEN THE POSSIBILITY OR THE THOUGHT THAT HE OR SHE MIGHT NO LONGER BE THERE FOR YOU CAN LEAD TO JEALOUSY, POSSESSIVENESS, ATTEMPTS AT MANIPULATION THROUGH EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL, BLAMING AND ACCUSING- FEAR OF LOSS. IF THE OTHER PERSON DOES LEAVE YOU, THIS CAN GIVE RISE TO THE MOST INTENSE HOSTILITY OR THE MOST PROFOUND GRIEF AND DESPAIR.
IN AN INSTANT, LOVING TENDERNESS CAN TURN INTO A SAVAGE ATTACK OR DREADFUL GRIEF. WHERE IS THE LOVE NOW? CAN LOVE CHANGE INTO ITS OPPOSITE IN AN INSTANT? WAS IT LOVE IN THE FIRST PLACE, OR JUST AN ADDICTIVE GRASPING AND CLINGING?
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