SEARCH YOUR WHOLENESS

 

                                               THE POWER OF PRESENCE

                                  MAN AND WOMAN RELATIONSHIPS

                        WHY SHOULD WE BECOME ADDICTED TO ANOTHER PERSON?

                 THE REASON WHY THE ROMANTIC LOVE RELATIONSHIP IS SUCH AN INTENSE AND UNIVERSALLY SOUGHT-AFTER EXPERIENCE IS THAT IT SEEMS TO OFFER LIBERATION FROM A DEEP-SEATED STATE OF FEAR, NEED, LACK, AND INCOMPLETENESS THAT IS PART OF THE HUMAN CONDITION IN ITS UNREDEEMED AND UNENLIGHTENED IS PART OF THE HUMAN CONDITION IN ITS UNREDEEMED AND UNENLIGHTENED STATE. THERE IS A PHYSICAL AS WELL AS A PSYCHOLOGICAL DIMENTION TO THIS STATE.

              ON THE PHYSICAL LEVEL, YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY NOT WHOLE, NOR WILL YOU EVER BE, YOU ARE EITHER A MAN OR WOMAN, WHICH IS TO SAY, ONE-HALF OF THE WHOLE. ON THIS LEVEL, THE LONGING FOR WHOLENESS - THE RETURN TO ONENESS-MANIFESTS AS MALE-FEMALE ATTRACTION, MAN'S NEED FOR A WOMAN, WOMAN'S NEED FOR A MAN. IT IS AN ALMOST IRRESITIBLE URGUE FOR IS A SPIRITUAL ONE, THE LONGING FOR AN END TO DUALITY, A RETURN TO THE STATE OF WHOLENESS. SEXUAL UNION IS THE CLOSEST YOU CAN GET TO THIS STATE ON THE PHYSICAL LEVEL. THIS IS WHY IT IS THED MOST DEEPLY SATISFYING EXPERIENCE THE PHYSICAL REALM CAN OFFER. BUT SEXUAL UNION IS NO MORE THAN A FLEETING GLIMPSE OF WHOLENESS, AN INSTANT OF BLISS. AS LONG AS IT IS UNCONCIOUSLY SOUGHT AS A MEAS OF SALVATION, YOU ARE SEEKING THE END OF DUALITY ON THE LEVEL OF FORM, WHERE IT CANNOT BE FOUND. YOU ARE GIVEN A TANTALIZING GLIMPSE OF HEAVEN, BUT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DWELL THERE, AND FIND YOURSELF AGAIN IN A SEPERATE BODY.

              ON THE PSYCHOLOGICAL LEVEL, THED SENSE O LACK INCOMPLETENESS IS, IF ANYTHING, EVEN GREATER THAN ON THE PHYSICAL LEVEL. AS LONG AS YOU ARE IDENTIFIED WITH THE MIND, YOU HAVE AN EXTERNALLY DERIVED SENSE OF SELF. THAT IS TO SAY, YOU GET YOUR SENSE OF WHO ARE YOU FROM THINGS THAT ULTIMATELY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH WHO YOU ARE, YOUR SOCIAL ROLE, POSSESIONS, EXTERNAL APPEARANCE, SUCCESSESS, AND FAILURES, BELIEF SYSTEMS, AND SO ON. THIS FALSE, MIND-MADE SELF, THE EGO, FEELS VULNERABLE, INSECURE, AND IS ALWAYS SEEKING NEW THINGS TO IDENTIFY WITH TO GIVE IS LASTING FULFILLMENT. ITS FEAR REMAINS, ITS SENSE OF LACK AND NEEDINESS REMAINS.

              BUT THEN THAT SPECIAL RELATIONSHIP COMES ALONG. IT SEEMS TO BE THE ANSWER TO ALL THE EGO'S PROBLEMS AND TO MEET ALL ITS NEED. AL LEAST THIS IS HOW IT APPEARS AT FIRST. ALL THE OTHER THINGS THAT YOU DERIVED YOUR SENSE OF SELF FROM BEFORE, NOW BECOME RELATIVELY INSIGNIFICANT. YOU NOW HAVE A SINGLE FOCAL POINT THAT REPLACES THEM ALL, GIVES MEANING TO YOUR LIFE, AND THROUGH WHICH YOU DEFINITE YOUR IDENTITY, THE PERSON YOU ARE "IN LOVE" WITH. YOU ARE NO LONGER A DISCONNECTED FRAGMENT IN AN UNCARING UNIVERSE, OR SO IT SEEMS. YOUR WORLD NOW HAS A CENTER, THE LOVED ONE. THE FACT THAT THE CENTER IS OUTSIDE YOU AND THAT, THEREFORE, YOU STILL HAVE AN EXTREMELY DERIVED SENSE OF SELF DOES NOT SEEM TO MATTER AT FIRST. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT THE UNDERLYING FEELINGS OF INCOMPLETENESS, OF FEAR, LACK AND UNFULFILLMENT SO CHARACTERISTIC OF THE EGOIC STATE ARE NO LONGER THERE-OR ARE THEY? HAVE THEY DISSOLVED, OR DO THEY CONTINUE TO EXIST UNDERNEATH THE HAPPY SURFACE REALITY?

               IF IN YOUR RELATIONSHIPS YOU EXPERIENCE BOTH "LOVE" AND THE OPPOSITE OF LOVE-ATTACK, EMOTIONAL VIOLENCE, AND SO ON- THEN IT IS LIKELY THAT YOU ARE CONFUSING EGO ATTACHMENT AND ADDICTIVE CLINGING WITH LOVE. YOU CANNOT LOVE YOUR PARTNER ONE MOMENT AND ATTACK HIM OR HER THE NEXT. TRUE LOVE HAS NO OPPOSITE. IF YOUR "LOVE" HAS AN OPPOSITE, THEN IT IS NOT LOVE BUT A STRONG EGO-NEED FOR A MORE COMPLETE AND DEEPER SENSE OF SELF, A NEED THAT THE OTHER PERSON TEMPORARILY MEETS. IT IS THE EGO'S SUBSTITUTE FOR SALVATION, AND FOR A SHORT TIME IT ALMOST DOES FEEL LIKE SALVATION.

                 BUT THERE COMES A PONT WHEN YOUR PARTNER BEHAVES IN WAYS THAT FAIL TO MEET YOUR NEES, OR RATHER THOSE OF YOUR EGO. THE FEELINGS OF FEAR, PAIN, AND LACT THAT ARE AN INTRINSIC PART OF EGOIC CONSCIOUSNESS BUT HAD BEEN COVERED UP BY THE "LOVE RELATIONSHIP" NOW RESURFACE. JUST AS WITH EVERY OTHER ADDICTION, YOU ARE ON A HIGH WHEN THE DRUG IS AVAILABLE, BUT INVARIABLY THERE COMES A TIME WHEN THE DRUG NO LONGER WORKS FOR YOU. WHEN THOSE PAINFUL FEELINGS REAPPEAR, YOU FEEL THEM EVEN MORE STRONGLY THAN BEFORE, AND WHAT IS MORE, YOU NOW PERCIEVE YOUR PARTNER AS THE CAUSE OF THOSE FEELINGS. THIS MEANS THAT YOU PROJECT THEM OUTWARD AND ATTACK THE OTHER WITH ALL THE SAVAGE VIOLENCE THAT IS PART OF YOUR PAIN. THIS ATTACK MAY AWAKEN THE PARTNER'S OWN PAIN, AND HE OR SHEN MAY COUNTER YOUR ATTACK. AT THIS POINT, THE EGO IS STILL UNCONSCIOUSLY HOPING THAT ITS ATTACK OR ITS ATTEMPTS AT MANIPULATION WILL BE SUFFICIENT PUNISHMENT TO INDUCE YOUR PARTNER TO CHANGE THEIR BEHAVIOR, SO THAT IT CAN USE THEM AGAIN AS A COVER-UP FOR YOUR PAIN.

                 EVERY ADDICTION ARISES FROM AN UNCONSCIOUS REFUSAL TO FACE AND MOVE THROUGH YOUR OWN PAIN. EVERY ADDICTION STARTS WITH PAIN AND ENDS WITH PAIN. WHATEVER THE SUBSTANCE YOU ARE ADDICTED TO - ALCOHOL, FOOD, LEGAL OR ILLEGAL DRUGS, OR A PERSON - YOU ARE USING SOMETHING OR SOMETHING OR SOMEBODY TO COVER UP YOUR PAIN. THAT IS WHY, AFTER THE INITIAL EUPHORIA HAS PASSED, THERE IS SO MUCH UNHAPPINESS, SO MUCH PAIN IN INTIMATE RELATIONSHIPS. THEY DO NOT CAUSE PAIN AND UNHAPPINESS. THEY BRING OUT THE PAIN AND UNHAPPINESS THAT IS ALREADY IN YOU. EVERY ADDICTION DOES THAT. EVERT ADDICTION REACHES A POINT WHERE IT DOES NOT WORK FOR YOU ANYMORE, AND THEN YOU FEEL THE PAIN MORE INTENSELY THAN EVER.

            THIS IS ONE REASON WHY MOST PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS TRYING TO ESCAPE FROM THE PRESENT MOMENT AND ARE SEEKING SOME KIND OF SALVATION IN THE FUTURE. THE FIRST THING THAT THEY MIGHT ENCOUNTER IF THEY FOCUSED THEIR ATTENTION ON THE NOW IS THEIR OWN PAIN, AND THIS IS WHAT THEY FEAR. IF THEY ONLY KNEW HOW EASY IT IS TO ACCESS IN THE NOW THE POWER OF PRESENCE THAT DISSOLVE THE PAST AND ITS PAIN, THE REALITY THAT DISSOLVES THE ILLUSION. IF THEY ONLY KNEW HOW CLOSE THEY ARE TO THEIR OWN REALITY, HOW CLOSE TO GOD.

             AVOIDANCE OF RELATIONSHIPS IN AN ATTEMPT TO AVOID PAIN IS NOT THE ANSWER EITHER. THE PAIN IS THERE ANYWAY. THREE FAILED RELATIONSHIPS IN AS MANY YEARS ARE MORE LIKELY TO FORCE YOU INTO AWAKENING THAN THREE YEARS ON A DESERT ISLAND OR SHUT AWAY IN YOUR ROOM. BUT IF YOU COULD BRING INTENSE PRESENCE INTO YOUR ALONENESS, THAT WOULD WORK FOR YOU TOO.

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