DREAMS WITH BEAUTY
TALKS BETWEEN SATYAKAM AND KAPALAK NOW LINGERED MOSTLY ON BHAIRAVI. AS SOON AS SATYAKAM AS SATYAKAM RETUREND FROM SEEING HER, KAPALAK WOULD ASK HIM ABOUT HIS EXPERIENCE. SATYAKAM GREW ENTHUSIASTIC AS HE TALKED LESS ABOUT NADA. YOGA AND MORE ABOUT HIS DIALOGUES WITH BHAIRAVI. KAPALAK HARDLY CHASTENED HIM, AS IF THIS WERE BOUND TO HAPPEN AND HIS TRAINING WITH SATYAKAM HAD THUS ENDED.
THE ATTRACTION BETWEEN SATYAKAM AND BHAIRAVI NO LONGER REMAINDED A SECRET. MANY PONDERED THE RIGHT AND WRONG OF IT. HOWEVER, NONE HAD THE COURAGE TO OBJECT OPENLY OR TO PRY INTO IT FURTHER. THE WHOLE DRAMA SEEMED THE PRODUCT OF A DIVINE DECREE, AND SLOWLY PEOPLE BEGAN TO TAKE IT QUITE EASILY AND NATURALLY, REGARDING THE COUPLE AS A PART OF THEIR COMPANY. SOME PEOPLE, OF COURSE, CAME TO RESENT ALL THIS, THEY GOSSIPED A LOT AND KEPT AWAY. THE OVERALL RUSH OF PEOPLE TO VISIT BHARAVI REMAINDED MORE OR LESS THE SAME.
OFTEN BHAIRAVI AND SATYAKAM WOULD BE SEATED TOGETHER WHEN THE PEOPLE PAID THEIR RESPECTS AND GAVE OFFERINGS. SINCE THEY SOUGHT BLESSINGS FROM BOTH OF THEM, SATYAKAM DID NOT HESITATE TO TOUCH THEIR HANDS WITH HIS BENIGN HANDS.
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THE YEAR ENDED WITH THE GREAT DURGA PUJA, FESTIVAL. THEN CAME KALI PUJA, MOST AUSPICIOUS FOR TANTRICS. THRONGS OF PEOPLE POURED INTO THE TEMPLE DAY AND NIGHT. ENJOYING A DOUBLE FEAST THIS YEAR - KALI PUJA AS WELL AS A HOLY COUPLE IN HUMAN FORM. BUT WITH INCREASED WORSHIP BY THE PEOPLE AND THE WARMTH AND LOVE BETWEEN THE TWO, THERE GREW IN SATYAKAM A LINGERING APPREHENSION ABOUT IT ALL. HE BEGAN TO QUESTION IS LEGITIMACY.
KAPALAK, WHO COULDN'T HELP NOTICING THIS, INVITED HIM FOR A DIALOGUE ONE DAY. SEATED ON THE BANK OF ADI GANGA, SATYAKAM EXPRESSED HIS CONFUSION OVER THIS MAN-WOMAN RELATIONSHIP VERSUS HIS SPIRITUAL PRACTICES. HIS LOVE FOR BHAIRAVI WAS FULL, BUT HE COULDN'T HIDE HIS TRADITIONAL DOUBTS. HE KNEW THE POWER OF TEMPTATIONS. KAPALAK HEARD HIM WITH COOL PATIENCE AND LOVING CARE. FOR A LONG WHILE THERE WAS SILENCE. CONFUSED AND DISHEARTENED, SATYAKAM BECAME DEEPLY SAD FOR THE SECOND TIME. HE REMEMBERED THE FIRST TIME HE HAD BECOME TIME. HE REMEMBERED THE FIRST TIME HE HAD BECOME SAD, WHEN HIS MASTER HAD ENTERED HIS HUT FOR THE LAST TIME IN HIMALAYA.
THE MUDDY WATER OF ADI GANGA FLOWED SLOWLY AND QUIETLY. WITHOUT HIS FACE, KAPALAK BEGAN TO SPEAK IN A RICH, HEAVY VOICE.
SATYAKAM, YOU HAVE BEEN SEEN HERE FOR THIS PURPOSE. AN INCLINATION FOR LEARNING TANTRA WAS SIMPLY AN EXCUSE, THOUGH NOT ALTOGETHER A HOLLOW ONE. PRECISELY SPEAKING, YOU WERE TO GO THROUGH TANTRA EDUCATION SO AS TO KNOW AND FULLY APPRECIATE THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MAN AND WOMAN, NOT IN THE WAY PEOPLE GENERALLY UNDERSTAND IT, BUT ON A MUCH HIGHER LEVEL: AS THE MYSTICAL PHENOMENON OF CREATION.
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BE MINDFUL, SATYAKAM, THAT EACH MALE HAS A PORTION OF FEMALE IN HIM AND EACH FEMALE HAS A MALE PORTION IN HER. ACCORDING TO TANTRIC TEACHINGS, A MAN HAS FOUR ELEMENTS OF MALE AND THREE OF FEMALE IN HIM, AND A WOMAN HAS FOUR ELEMENTS OF FEMALE AND THREE OF MALE IN HER. THIS DIFFERENCE OF ONE ELEMENT MAKE A MAN AND A WOMAN. ITHERWISE THERE IS NO ESSENTIAL DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO. BOTH HAVE BEEN CREATED IN THIS WAY SO AS TO MAKE CREATION POSSIBLE. WOMAN IS AN EMBODIMENT OF NATURE, WHICH IS PART OF MAN.
BARRING ONE ELEMENTAL DIFFERENCE, BOTH HAVE THE SAME CHARACTERISTICS, BIRTH-DEATH, LOVE-HATRED, TOLERATION-ANGER, THIRST-HUNGER, FEAR-COURAGE, PASSION, LUST, BELLIGERENCE, WILL TO LIVE, THE SEARCH FOR HAPPINESS, AND SO FORTH.
TOGETHER THEY MAKE COMPLETE COMBINATION OF THE SEVEN ELEMENTS AN THUS MAKE UNION POSSIBLE.
HEAVING A DEEP SIGH, KAPALAK LOOKED AT SATYAKAM WHO WAS LISTENING INTENTLY, KAPALAK CONTINUED, WHATEVER PERFECTION YOU MAY ACHIEVE IN YOURSELF WILL ALWAYS REMAIN INCOMPLETE WITHOUT KNOWING THE CORRESPONDING RELATIONSHIP WITH NATURE, OF WHICH WOMAN IS AN EMBODIMENT - FOR MAN. UNIVERSAL NATURE, OFTEN WOMAN TOO! TRADITIONAL WAYS OF DEALING WITH A WOMAN ARE NO LONGER PRACTICAL FOR A WHO WANTS TO ACHIEVE PERFECTION. TEMPTAION IS ANOTHER WORD FOR FEAR.
I DO NOT MEAN TO EMPHASIZE THE RELATIONSHIP AS SUCH, BUT RATHER YOUR KNOWING THE SECRET OF THAT RELATIONSHIP. ONCE YOU REALIZE THAT WOMAN IS IN YOU, AS MAN IS IN WOMAN TOO, YOU'LL HARDLY FIND A STRUGGLE NECESSARY TO HAVE OR NOT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP.
DO YOU MEAN THAT ONCE A MAN KNOWS HIS NATURE FULLY WITHIN HIM, INCLUDING THE FEMALE ASPECT, THEN THE NEED FOR A WOMAN, OR THE ABSENCE OF THIS NEED , IS IMMATERIAL, AND THE SAME HOLDS TRUE FOR A WOMAN, TOO?
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EXACTLY, KAPALAK CONTINUED, IN OTHER WORDS, MAN AND WOMAN NO LONGER REMAIN A TEMPTATION TO EACH OTHER, BUT ARE COMPLIMENTARY WHEN YOU KNOW YOUR NATURE WITHIN FULLY, THE OUTER WORLD, INCLUDING THE OPPOSITE SEX, MERELY PRESENTS A RELECTION OF IT. IN SHORT, WHATEVER WEAKNESS OR STRENGTH LIES WITHIN YOUR MENTAL FABRIC, THE CORRESPONDING TEMPTATIONS RO MASTERY WILL FOLLOW WITHOUT. GREATEST OF ALL IS THE KNOWLEDGE WHICH RELEASE YOU FROM TEMPTATION AND WEAKNESS AND MAKES YOU SEE THE TRUTH. CONSEQUENTLY, HAVING A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT LOSES ITS DISTINCTION AND THUS YOU ARE FREE FROM TEMPTATIONS OR AVOIDANCE.
SATYAKAM TURNED HIS GAZE ON KAPALAK'S FACE, ASKING SHAPLY, WHY DID YOU PREFER NOT TO HAVE A CONSORT SINCE YOU KNOW THE SECRET OF THE MAN-WOMAN RELATIONSHIP?
KAPALAK SMILED AND RAISED HIS HEAD. MAJESTICALLY, HE TURNED HIS WHOLE TORSO TOWARD SATYAKAM AND WITH UTMOST COMMAND HE REPLIED, WHO TOLD YOU I DIDN'T HAVE ONE ON THIS OR THE PREVIOUS BIRTH? AND DIDN'T I SAY THAT AFTER YOU KNOW THE MYSTICAL SECRET OF YOUR NATURE YOU ARE NO LONGER IN NEED OF OR WITHOUT NEED OF SUCH A RELATIONSHIP?
KAPALAK LOOKED TRIUMPHANTLY AT SATYAKAM AND RELEASED THE LAST MISSILE, I HAVE AVOIDED HAVING A CONSORT WITH ME, IF THAT IS WHAT YOU MEANT, NOT TO AVOID TEMPTATION OR DOWNFALL, BUT BECAUSE I NO LONGER FEEL A CRAVING FOR ONE. I FEEL SO FULL INSIDE BECAUSE, HAVING KNOWN AND MASTERED MY NATURE, I HARDLY NEED A COMPANION OUTSIDE. THIS DOES NOT MEAN EITHER THAT IF HAD ONE IT WOULD MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE IN MY BEHAVIOR. PERHAPS YOU MAY TAKE IT THAT WITHIN AND WITHOTU HAVE LOST ANY MEANING FOR ME, AND THIS IS THE WAY I AM IN THIS INCARNATION.
SATYAKAM BECAME SOBER AND WITH HIS HEAD BENT DOWN. DEFEATED, HE HUMBLY ASKED, THEN WHY DO YOU ENCOURAGE ME TO HAVE A CONSORT, WHEN THE POSSIBILITY OF DERIVING FULL KNOWLEDGE AND PERFECTION LIES IN KNOWING MY OWN NATURE INDEPENDENTLY?
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BENIGNLY, KAPALAK SPOKE, YOUR KARMAS AT PRESENT ARE DIFFERENT FROM MINE. PERHAPS AT ONE POINT I HAD THE SAME NEES AS YOU HAVE NOW. ONE HAS TO FOLLOW THE PATH ACCORDING TO ONE'S REQUIREMENTS AND NOT BY MECHANICALLY IMITATIONG SOMEONE ELSE.
ALSO, YOU MUST BEAR IN MIND THAT EACH ONE'S MISSION ON THIS EARTH IS ONE'S OWN, AND THUS DIFFERENT FROM ANOTHER'S. IN ONE RESPECT YOU ARE VERY LUCKY, SATYAKAM. YOU WON'T HAVE TO STRUGGLE MUCH WITH THIS MAN-WOMAN PROBLEM, BECAUSE BOTH YOU AND BHAIRAVI ARE ALREADY ADVANCED SOULS. YOU WILL BE PLEASANTLY SUPRISED ONE DAY WHEN YOU'LL FIND THAT THING THAT PERHAPS BOTHERED YOU SO MUCH, THAT BROUGHT YOU DOWN FROM HIMALAYA, WAS NOT REALLY A TEMPTATION OR A DOWNFALL. RATHER, IT WAS A FULFILLMENT AND COMPLETION OF YOUR UNDERSTANDING, A MISSION FOR YOU TO BRIDGE A GRAP IN YOUR UNDERSTANDING OF MAN IN GENERAL AND OF THE WHOLE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MAN AND WOMAN.
SATYAKAM RELEASED A LONG BREATH AND LOOKED AT KAPALAK WITH THANKFULNESS AND AMUSEMENT.
KAPALAK SUDDENLY JUMPTED UP AND QUIETLY BEGAN WALKING AWAY FROM THE RIVER. SATYAKAM, SOMEWHAT DAZED, FOLLOWED AFER HIM.
NEARING THE HUT, KAPALAK ABRUPTLY TURNED BACK AND ANNOUNCED, ON THE DAY OF THE NEW MOON, AT MIDNIGHT, MEET ME AT THE SAME SPOT ON THE RIVERBANK WHERE WE WERE JUST SITTING, I'LL START SOME MORE TANTRIC TECHNIQUES WITH YOU, SAYING THIS, HE ENTERED HIS HURT AND CLOSED THE DOOR BEHIND HIM. SATYAKAM WAS BEGINNING TO SEE A HITHERTO UNKNOW FACET OF KAPALAK.
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