ACCESSING NOW
A MOMENT AGO, WHEN YOU TALKED THE EXTERNAL PRESENT AND THE UNREALITY OF PAST AND FUTURE, I FOUND MYSELF LOOKING AT THAT TREE OUTSIDE THE WINDOW. I HAD LOOKED AT IT A FEW TIMES BEFORE, BUT THIS TIME IT WAS DIFFERENT. THE EXTERNAL PERCEPTION HAD NOT CHANGED MUCH, EXCEPT THAT THE COLORS SEEMED BRIGHTER AND MORE VIBRANT. BUT THERE WAS NOW AN ADDED DIMENSION TO IT. THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN. I DON'T KNOW HOW, BUT I WAS AWARE OF SOMETHING INVISIBLE THAT I FELT WAS THE ESSENSE OF THAT TREE, ITS INNER SPIRIT, IF YOU LIKE. AND SOMEHOW I WAS PART OF THAT. I REALIZE NOW THAT I HADN'T TRULY SEEN THE TREE BEFORE, JUST A FLAT AND DEAD IMAGE PRESENT, BUT I CAN FEEL IT SLIPPING AWAY. YOU SEE, THE EXPERIENCE IS ALREADY RECEDING INTO THE PAST. CAN SOMETHING LIKE THIS EVER BE MORE THAN A FLEETING GLIMSE?
YOU WERE FREE OF TIME FOR A MOMENT. YOU MOVED INTO THE NOW AND THEREFORE PERCEIVED THE TREE WITHOUT THE SCREEN OF MIND. THE AWARENESS OF BEING BECAME PART OF YOUR PERCEPTION. WITH THE TIMELESS DIMENSION COMES A DIFFERENT KIND OF KNOWING, ONE THAT DOES NOT "KILL" THE SPIRIT THAT LIVES WITHIN EVERY CREATURE AND EVERY THING. A KNOWING THAT DOES NOT DESTROY THE SACREDNESS AND MYSTERY OF LIFE BUT CONTAINS A DEEP LOVE AND REVERENCE FOR ALL THAT IS. A KNOWING OF WHICH THE MIND KNOWS NOTHING.
THE MIND CANNOT KNOW THE TREE. IT CAN ONLY KNOW FACTS OR INFORMATION ABOUT THE TREE. MY MIND CANNOT KNOW YOU, ONLY LABELS, JUDGMENTS, FACTS, AND OPINIONS ABOUT YOU. BEING ALONE KNOWS DIRECTLY.
THERE IS A PLACE FOR MIND AND MIND KNOWLEDGE. IT IS IN THE PRACTICAL REALM OF DAY-TO-DAY LIVING. HOWEVER, WHEN IT TAKES OVER ALL ASPECTS OF YOUR LIFE, INCLUDING YOUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS AND WITH NATURE, IT BECOMES A MONSTROUS PARASITE THAT, UNCHECKED, MAY WELL END UP KILLING ALL LIFE ON THE PLANET AND FINALLY ITSELF BY KILLING ITS HOST.
YOU HAVE HAD A GLIMPSE OF HOW THE TIMELESS CAN TRANSFORE YOUR PERCEPTIONS. BUT AN EXPERIENCE IS NOT ENOUGH. NO MATTER HOW BEAUTIFUL OR PROFOUND. WHAT IS NEEDED AND WHAT WE ARE CONCERNED WITH IS A PERMANENT SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS.
SO BREAK THE OLD PATTERN OF PRESENT-MOMENT DENIAL AND PRESENT MOMENT RESISTANCE. MAKE IT YOUR PRACTICE TO WITHDRAW ATTENTION FROM PAST AND FUTURE WHENEVER THEY ARE NOT NEEDED. STEP OUT OF THE TIME DIMENTION AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE IN EVERYDAY LIFE. IF YOU FIND IT HARD TO ENTER THE NOW DIRECTLY, STARY BY OBSERVING THE HABITUAL TENDENCY OF YOUR MIND TO WANT TO ESCAPE FROM THE NOW. YOU WILL OBSERVE THAT THE FUTURE IS USUALLY IMAGINED AS EITHER BETTER OR WORSE THAN THE PRESENT. IF THE IMAGINED FUTURE IS BETTER , IT GIVES YOU HOPE OR PLEASURABLE ANTICIPATION. IF IT IS WORSE, IT CREATES ANXIETY. BOTH ARE ILLUSORY. THROUGH SELF-OBSERVATION, MOREPRESENCE COMES INTO YOUR LIFE AUTOMATICALLY. THE MOMENT YOU REALIZE YOU ARE NOT PRESENT, YOU ARE PRESENT. WHENEVER YOU ARE ABLE TO OBSERVE YOUR MIND, YOU ARE NO LONGER TRAPPED IN IT. ANOTHER FACTOR HAS COME IN, SOMETHING THAT IS NOT OF THE MIND. THE WITNESSING PRESENCE.
BE PRESENT AS THE WATCHES OF YOUR MIND - OF YOUR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS AS WELL AS YOUR REACTIONS IN VARIOUS SITUATIONS. BE AT LEAST AS INTERESTED IN YOUR REACTIONS AS IN THE SITUATION OR PERSON THAT CAUSES YOU TO REACT. NOTICE ALSO HOW OFTEN YOUR ATTENTION IS IN THE PAST OR FUTURE. DON'T JUDGE OR ANALYZE WHAT YOU OBSERVE . WATCH THE THOUGHT, FEEL THE EMOTION, OBSERVE THE REACTION.DON'T MAKE A PERSONAL PROBLEM OUT OF THEM. YOU WILL THEN FEEL SOMETHING MORE POWERFUL THAN ANY OF THOSE THINGS THAT YOU OBSERVE. THE STILL, OBSERVING PRESENCE ITSELF BEHIND THE CONTENT OF YOUR MIND, THE SILENT WATCHER.
INTENSE PRESENCE IS NEEDED WHEN CERTAIN SITUATIONS TRIGGER A REACTION WITH A STRONG EMOTIONAL CHARGE, SUCH AS WHEN YOUR SELF-IMAGE IS THRATENED, A CHALLENGE COMES INTO YOUR LIFE THAT TRIG ERS FEAR, THINGS "GO WRONG" OR AN EMOTIONAL COMPLEX FROM THE PAST IS BROUGHT UP.IN THOSE INSTANCES, THE TENDENCY IS FOR YOU TO BECOME "INCONSCIOUS". THE REACTION OR EMOTION OR EMOTION TAKES YOU OVER- YOU "BECOME" OT, YOU ACT IT OUT, YOU JUSTIFY, MAKE WRONG, ATTACK, DEFEND... EXCEPT THAT IT ISN'T YOU, IT'S THE REACTIVE PATTERN, THE MIND IN ITS HABITUAL SURVIVAL MODE.
IDENTIFICATION WITH THE MIND GIVES IT MORE ENERGY, OBSERVATION OF THE MIND WITHDRAWS ENERGY FROM IT. IDENTIFICATION WITH THE MIND CREATES MORE TIME, OBSERVATION OF THE MIND OPENS UP THE DIMENSION OF THE TIMELESS. THE ENERGY THAT IS WITHDRAW FROM THE MIND TURNS INTO PRESENCE. ONCE YOU CAN FEEL WHAT IT MEANS TO BE PRESENT, IT BECOMES MUCH EASIER TO SIMPLY CHOOSE TO STEP OUT OF THE TIME DIMENSION WHENEVER TIME IS NOT NEEDED FOR PRACTICAL PURPOSES AND MOVE MORE DEEPLY INTO THE NOW. THIS DOES NOT IMPAIR YOUR ABILITY TO USE TIME - PAST OR FUTURE- WHEN YOU NEED TO REFER TO IT FOR PRACTICAL MATTERS. NOR DOES IT IMPAIR YOUR ABILITY TO USE YOUR MIND. IN FACT, IT ENHANCES IT. WHEN YOU DO USE YOUR MIND, IT WILL BE SHARPER, MORE FOCUSED.
